Friday, August 5, 2011


I got another mission.

I hereby announced, the MISI MENJADI PELAJAR CEMERLANG is now aborted. not gonna happen in the mean time.
pity though. I was so keen on being a student again.

Turnout, it will (sort of) be MISI MENJADI PENSYARAH (TUTOR) CEMERLANG.
yup, you read it right. pensyarah a.k.a tutor. I will be a student's boss's instead of a student. ^^

I can't help but thinking (and doubting) myself whether I'm capable to teach. Do I have the passion and patience? What kind of tutor will I be? a cool one? kerek dan garang? Slow? poyo????

my hope is to just stay positive and anticipating this new career. in Allah's willing, with the right dua and niat, I WILL BE FINE.


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

WAKE UP! *slaps self*

the title pretty much sums up everything....

Last Sunday, my friends and I went to the famous The Pavilion KL. We went hunting for the Red Velvet Cake. My friend mengidam, and no she's not pregnant. neither do I.
(yerp, its my first time there, pathetic isn't it? ^^)

OMONA! for a moment, I don't feel like I'm in Malaysia. Seriously. Like I'm in Paris or something. and I noticed the frequent users there. MOSTLY TEENAGERS. Which give me a freak because then I realized something.

They are all my eye candies! I love staring at them. They reminds me of all the 짱남자 I've seen in K-Drama. oh wait, what??? 짱남자????

OMO! mereka ada di sini???
Betulkah apa yang aku lihat ini?
Aku tidak bermimpi bukan??

tetapi haruslah mereka tak pandang akak disini kan?
mestilah mereka mahu stok-stok seperti Girls Generation mahupun Wonder Girls, 2NE1, 4Minute dan juga Sistar bukan???

*Lempang diri sendiri*

Makanya telah lah aku sedari, bahawa aku memang TAK la nak cekau that kind of 남자 kan?
memang TAK la that kind of 남자 interested kat kau kan?? hahahahaha

Sila lah sedar diri ye Cik Shazi oi!!

kembali ke Alam Nyata.
(iye saya sudah sedar diri)

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Misi Mustahil II

Its been a year from my Misi Mustahil I. Indeed its mustahil.
Not that I’m being negative and pessimist, turn out, its Misi Gagal.


I’ve let go (kinda) of my intention of pursuing my studies in my home land (I wish!) the land of Hanguk. Like I said before, if it’s not meant to be, then its not meant to be…

My (true) intetntion from the beginning is off actually. I intend to do lots of ‘benda lagha’ even BEFORE actually applying to the university. Hence, the not-regretting-the-unsent-and-unmail-scholarship-application back in 2010. ^^

Now I’m in a new mission.


Yup, you read it right.

After spending almost 4 year in the (so-called) professional field, I decided it’s time to move on. A very difficult decision I tell you. Lots of consideration, thinking, praying, doa, consultation, and contemplating has been done to make this decision.

Bukan tak sayang bidang ni, tapi setelah empat tahun bergelumang dengan kerjaya ini ditambah pula dengan bebanan kerja dan penindasan yang berterusan dan majikan yang makin lama makin tak semenggah, aku rasa aku perlu melakukan perubahan untuk kelangsungan hidup masa hadapan. Dan yang paling penting, aku nak membahagiakan hidup Emak dan Ayah. Like, really really really making them proud of me. I have been letting them down for too long. It’s time to take a turn.

Aku tak pernah lupa impian menjadi seorang pelajar semula. Jadi sekarang inilah hasilnya. Aku harap permohonan aku tu diluluskan. InsyaAllah… Ameen.

So, I’m embarking on a new journey…..soon. InsyaAllah. Doakan segalanya berjalan lancar.

My hopes are high.


Friday, April 29, 2011


we Virgos, keep things in our heart. Concealed perfectly.


That explains why this blog hasn't been updated.
Yeah. I'd blame it on my horoscope sign.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

OBVIOUS dowh...

Hello there,

It's been ages since the last time I'm here. For writing.
[iya, kerana saya sudah bertwitter yang lebih mudah dengan hanya 140 aksara sahaja, Bila berblogging saya perlu membuat karangan, maka saya malas =)]

Just keep peeking it, but no. No new entry. The result? my entry for last year is less than 10, 6 to be exact.
(nampak sangat saya ni malas)

reading other blogs I from friends, colleagues, strangers, made me realized, other people life is not what it seems. and made me very thankful indeed.

So thank you (yes, you) for reminding me of that. I keep complaining about things, keep wanting more rather than be happy for what I have.

may tomorrow be better than today. InsyaAllah.