WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?

I got another mission.

I hereby announced, the MISI MENJADI PELAJAR CEMERLANG is now aborted. not gonna happen in the mean time.
pity though. I was so keen on being a student again.

Turnout, it will (sort of) be MISI MENJADI PENSYARAH (TUTOR) CEMERLANG.
yup, you read it right. pensyarah a.k.a tutor. I will be a student's boss's instead of a student. ^^

I can't help but thinking (and doubting) myself whether I'm capable to teach. Do I have the passion and patience? What kind of tutor will I be? a cool one? kerek dan garang? Slow? poyo????

my hope is to just stay positive and anticipating this new career. in Allah's willing, with the right dua and niat, I WILL BE FINE.



AMEEN YA RABBAL ALAMEEN...

WAKE UP! *slaps self*

the title pretty much sums up everything....


Last Sunday, my friends and I went to the famous The Pavilion KL. We went hunting for the Red Velvet Cake. My friend mengidam, and no she's not pregnant. neither do I.
(yerp, its my first time there, pathetic isn't it? ^^)

OMONA! for a moment, I don't feel like I'm in Malaysia. Seriously. Like I'm in Paris or something. and I noticed the frequent users there. MOSTLY TEENAGERS. Which give me a freak because then I realized something.

They are all my eye candies! I love staring at them. They reminds me of all the 짱남자 I've seen in K-Drama. oh wait, what??? 짱남자????

OMO! mereka ada di sini???
Betulkah apa yang aku lihat ini?
Aku tidak bermimpi bukan??


tetapi haruslah mereka tak pandang akak disini kan?
mestilah mereka mahu stok-stok seperti Girls Generation mahupun Wonder Girls, 2NE1, 4Minute dan juga Sistar bukan???




*Lempang diri sendiri*





Makanya telah lah aku sedari, bahawa aku memang TAK la nak cekau that kind of 남자 kan?
memang TAK la that kind of 남자 interested kat kau kan?? hahahahaha



Sila lah sedar diri ye Cik Shazi oi!!



kembali ke Alam Nyata.
(iye saya sudah sedar diri)

Misi Mustahil II

Its been a year from my Misi Mustahil I. Indeed its mustahil.
Not that I’m being negative and pessimist, turn out, its Misi Gagal.


Iya, GAGAL.


I’ve let go (kinda) of my intention of pursuing my studies in my home land (I wish!) the land of Hanguk. Like I said before, if it’s not meant to be, then its not meant to be…

My (true) intetntion from the beginning is off actually. I intend to do lots of ‘benda lagha’ even BEFORE actually applying to the university. Hence, the not-regretting-the-unsent-and-unmail-scholarship-application back in 2010. ^^

Now I’m in a new mission.


MISI MENJADI PELAJAR CEMERLANG.


Yup, you read it right.

After spending almost 4 year in the (so-called) professional field, I decided it’s time to move on. A very difficult decision I tell you. Lots of consideration, thinking, praying, doa, consultation, and contemplating has been done to make this decision.

Bukan tak sayang bidang ni, tapi setelah empat tahun bergelumang dengan kerjaya ini ditambah pula dengan bebanan kerja dan penindasan yang berterusan dan majikan yang makin lama makin tak semenggah, aku rasa aku perlu melakukan perubahan untuk kelangsungan hidup masa hadapan. Dan yang paling penting, aku nak membahagiakan hidup Emak dan Ayah. Like, really really really making them proud of me. I have been letting them down for too long. It’s time to take a turn.

Aku tak pernah lupa impian menjadi seorang pelajar semula. Jadi sekarang inilah hasilnya. Aku harap permohonan aku tu diluluskan. InsyaAllah… Ameen.

So, I’m embarking on a new journey…..soon. InsyaAllah. Doakan segalanya berjalan lancar.

My hopes are high.


I NEED THOSE CHANGES.

DISCLAIMER

we Virgos, keep things in our heart. Concealed perfectly.









Okay.










That explains why this blog hasn't been updated.
Yeah. I'd blame it on my horoscope sign.

OBVIOUS dowh...

Hello there,


It's been ages since the last time I'm here. For writing.
[iya, kerana saya sudah bertwitter yang lebih mudah dengan hanya 140 aksara sahaja, Bila berblogging saya perlu membuat karangan, maka saya malas =)]

Just keep peeking it, but no. No new entry. The result? my entry for last year is less than 10, 6 to be exact.
(nampak sangat saya ni malas)

reading other blogs I from friends, colleagues, strangers, made me realized, other people life is not what it seems. and made me very thankful indeed.

So thank you (yes, you) for reminding me of that. I keep complaining about things, keep wanting more rather than be happy for what I have.

may tomorrow be better than today. InsyaAllah.

Good News/Bad News

I'm in a race that I will never win......


*Bitter smile*

Coffee Anyone?

Aku bermimpi indah semalam. Rasa seperti tidak mahu bangun dari mimpi indah itu.

Why would I want to wake up if in my dream, I have Taecyon as my boyfriend and I can fluently converse in Korean?

Iya, ini akibat menonton terlalu banyak 신 다 랠 라 언 니 sampai terbawa-bawa ke dalam mimpi. Haih!

Last week was chaotic, exhausting and laborious. Go through all painstaking detail to complete the KGSP form which lastly, I can’t submit it because they don’t accept the form by hand, they only accept the form via post only. And I was like…what the elf?

Not to mention the troubles and difficulties I have to endure in order to get the official envelope from my former lecturer. Janji nak jumpa dia pukul 8.30, sudahnya sampai 10.30 sebab jalan jammed gila, semua orang KL keluar berpesta muda-mudi kerana malam minggu esok cuti Hari Buruh. Damn!

Iya, sudahnya saya tidak menghantar Borang itu.

Setelah bung-bang-bung-bang (sound effect menunjukkan betapa chaotic nya situasi itu). Sepatutnya saya kecewa tahap gaban kerana impian saya musnah, tetapi entah mengapa saya tidak merasa marah atau furious.

Hey, if it’s not meant to be, then it’s not meant to be… right?

Mungkin aku pun dah berputus asa untuk Misi Mustahil ini, jadi aku pun redha je dengan apa yang berlaku. Mungkin ini bukan rezeki aku. Not this time, some other time. I always pray if this is my call, then the journey would be easy and smooth. Turn out, aku dah dapat tanda-tanda ini bukan rezeki aku dari awal lagi. Tapi aku je yang ignorant, tak peduli semua tanda-tanda itu. Padan muka aku. haha


Aku ada lagi 239 hari lagi untuk mencari peluang Misi Mustahil. Setakat ini Peluang Pertama (KGSP) dah terlepas. Aku ada 2 peluang lagi. Mari berusaha untuk Peluang Kedua dan Peluag Ketiga pula.

InsyaAllah kalau ada rezeki akan berjaya. Doakan aku…

kureyo?

I'm starting to question my existence here....













p/s: I'm sooo not PMS-ing right now okay?

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!

Yup, I don’t think it’s late to wish everyone a happy new year. May all your wishes and hope comes true this year.

New year, new resolution….. NOT!

As far as I’m concern, I never had a really specific resolution for every year. My plan was always, do your best and just go with he flow.. well at least I had 5 years planning, 10 years planning and so on… and most of it is according to plan.

Well, I think for it all depends on your rezeki. If Allah say you’re gonna get it, you’ll get it. It’s something I have no power over of. I may have to struggle to get something, but in the end, truly Allah is the one to decide whether I got it or not.

And I am thankful for what I’ve got so far. There were days that I felt unlucky and started questioning about other people position, wealth and lucky-ness but now I realize, ‘rezeki masing-masing’…those day of envies are over.

So I hope for my path for this year is easy, with some ups and down, because really, that’s the only way to learn. I think a person with easy life is boring. Where’s the fun to that right? Hehe

Nevertheless, I wish everyone a blissful year ahead…. Aja aja hwaiting!

Selamat Pengantin Baru Kepada Semua Kawan-Kawan Yang Baru Menikah Pada Hujung Minggu Yang Lalu

Ya, sila tanya aku soalan " Kau bila pulak?" kalau nak rasa penangan Hikmat Tunjal Jari Kelingking Dekat Dahi ....

Perihal MAMA dan Cullens Bersaudara…

Last weekend was a blast! Thanks to MNet Asian Music Awards and Twillight.

Even though I didn’t quite understand what they are saying (what do you expect? Live transmission has no subtitle of course!) , I really enjoyed myself. A lot! Balik-balik dari kenduri kahwin kat kampong, dapat message dari Decky kata ada award tuh. Terus tukar channel. Dari tengok berita, tengok channel [v]. Agak terkilan sebab tak dapat tengok dari awal. Award itu mula pukul 7, aku baru tahu dalam pukul 8.30 camtu. Tapi ok jugak sebab dapat tengok performance dari G-Dragon, Kim Tae Woo.. paling best performance dari 2pm. Bak kata Decky “Walaupun tak berapa kenal + minat some of the artist, tapi the fact that we watch it live from Korea enough to excites me”. So true Decky. I so 100% totally agree with you.

Kalau dengar atau tengok Korean artist video clip, especially the one from DBSK, really make my day, sekarang mereka dah ada 2 album lepas album Volume 3, ish, bayak gila update aku tak tahu pasal mereka ni.

Memang berbaloi-baloi tengok MNet Asian Music Award tu!



*****



Malam semalam akhirnya aku dapat tengok movie yang menjadi igauan Aidah selama ini. (So lame, I know) Twillight, kisah cinta seorang vampire vegetarian… iya vegetarian sebab they don’t suck on humans blood, they feed only from animals blood.

Okaaay, disebabkan cerita and feedback dari orang lain sangat bagus tentang cerita ini, maka aku ada expectations untuk cerita ini. Tapi aku agak keciwa kerana cerita ini agak slow. Dah hujung2 cerita baru ada action. Pastu aku macam tak paham banyak benda dalam cerita ini. The handsome Edward Cullen did not manage to make me ‘flying over to the moon’. Bonus marks just for the smile though. Hehe.

Things I don’t quite understand in this movie:-
1) Is that Bella girl also a vampire or is she kinda a mixture of a werewolf and a vampire? Or is she have superpower of something?
2) The fact that their ideal way of dating is spending time looking at each others for hours until it snow. ????
3) Why does that Jacob guy appear like 0.08 percent in this movie? Is it because I already know that he’s a werewolf so I was hoping more of him in this movie?
4) The fact that vampires shine and sparkling when they are exposed to sunlight. Shouldn’t they burn or explode or something like that when exposed to sunlight?

Maybe I was so influenced by vampires like that on the Interview With Vampires, Buffy and Blade. And maybe because my ideal kind of bad boy is Deacon Frost. So I might be biased here.

Err I cannot say much negative things about this movie. Aidah might feel defensive over her Edward Cullen. Plus, she once said “Akak ni tak romanticla!”. Yep, maybe I’m not Aidah. And I also don’t believe in love-at-first-sight crap.

Maybe this movie is not my kind of romance. Perhaps I should read the books as well so that I can truly understand the conflicts and romances of this movie.

Eh, tiba-tiba emosi pulak.

Ta Da Wa

Kau pernah tak rasa tak tenang?

Macam-macam cara dah dicuba nak tenteramkan hati tapi still hati kau tak tenang jugak?
Sila beri aku solution untuk masalah aku ini.

Aku dah try baca Quran, solat sunat, tidur pun dah tapi rasa tak tenang tu tak hilang-hilang jugak. Kenapa ek?

Mungkin ini satu dugaan dan ujian aku. Sebab aku rasa, untuk tenang, calm, serene itu jugak satu nikmat dan rezeki. Sama jugak macam ability untuk hidup macam all the small-smal things yang kita selalu take for granted. Macam the ability to breathe, laugh smile….Aku anggap itu rezeki. Jadik mungkin bukan rezeki aku untuk merasa tenang.

Mungkin aku ada buat dosa dan Allah sedang membalas perbuatan aku dulu. Karma. What goes around comes around. Mungkin…

Pissed-off…..again!

Pissed-off…..again! (and sad too)

I met new people when dealing with the local authority these last few days.

My oh my….



My Colleague: “ Kenalkan ini, LA office aku, Cik Atul, belum kahwin lagi nih…”


Aku: Hi, nice too meet you, saya Atul.


Dia: Saya pon ada ramai kawan badan besar ni..."


Aku: ??????

Rant!

Hari ni rasa bengang lagi. Asyik nak mengamuk je seminggu ni. PMS-ing kot.

Satu lagi benda yang buat aku hangin semalam. Hish tibe rasa nak maraha dengan semua akitek kat Malaysia ni. Kerek betul akitek yang call aku semalam….


Akitek: Dengan sapa saya boleh bercakap pasal projek tut tut dekat TTDI tu?

Aku : Owh saya yang in-charge projek tu skarang.

Akitek: Ada tak plan landscape untuk tingkat 28?

Aku: Erm takda encik, setahu saya sampai tingkat 5 je.

Akitek: Untuk penthouse ada tak?

Aku: oh! Penthouse. Kalau untuk penthouse ada. Tapi saya dah bagi semua copy kat encik. Hardcopy dengan softcopy sekali.

Akitek: Bila awak bagi? 2 tahun dulu?
(cewah ayat dia tak hengat nak marah-marah aku. Padahal dah 2 kali aku bagi CD kt kompeni dia.bukan nk check dulu!)

Aku: Eh saya bagi dalam sebulan dulu. Saya bagi hardcopy blue print sekali dengan CD dekat En.tut tut hari itu.

Akitek: Saya dah tanya dekat colleage saya. Dia cakap tak ada. Sekarang saya nak plan tu.(pergh berlagak betul mamat ni.Mintak elok-elok tak boleh ke?)

Aku: Okeylah encik, macam mana saya nk bagi kt encik ni? Encik nak hardcopy ke softcopy?

Akitek: Saya nak softcopy.Awak emailkan nanti.

Aku: Okey. Email address encik?

Akitek: arch@tut tut.com.my . Takkan itu pun awak tak tahu?
(memanglah aku tahu, tapi nk bagi attention kat sapa? Dia bagitau nama pon tidak!)

Aku: Erm nak attention kat siapa email ni encik? Nama encik ….?

Akitek: oh! Saya Encik tut tut .

Aku: Okey, saya check dulu bila saya bagi drawing tu dulu, kalau saya tak pernah bagi sebelum ni, saya akan emailkan balik kt encik.
(padahal aku konfem gila aku penah bagi CD kt bos dia)

Akitek: Ok….. (terus letak telefon).


Kwanghaja betul. Bukan nak cakap terima kasih ke hapa. Padahal dia yang tak cari dulu. Dasar akitek pemalas! Huh!




*****




Satu lagi kes yang aku rasa hangin sangat ialah bila kau fikir kau ada duit kau boleh buat saja. Kabel kuat. Kaki kipas. Kaki putar alam. Pemanipulasi keadaan.

Ayat-ayat macam…


“Aku ada kenal sorang ni, Kalau ko nak projek, ko kene baik-baik la dengan dia..”

Atau

“Ayah aku ada kenal orang dalam Persatuan tut tut tut ni. Tak payah jadi ahli pon boleh amik exam.”


Atau


“Kite kena up-kan diri kita sikit, barulah industri kita maju…”


And I was like… what the elf?

Seriyes rasa macam nak marah. Orang-orang macam nilah yang membuatkan orang Melayu makin mundur melayu-layu, tah bila tah nak segarnya.

Urgh! Pagi pagi dah emo. Shooh shooh pergi jauh-jauh aura negative ni! Pergi!


Hinssss hinsssss tarik napas dalam dalam….bawak bertenang….






Senyum……!

Freaking Boring!

Owh

It’s Thursday and its freaking fast.


Boring…betul.


Kadang-kadang rasa cam nak berhenti keje dan terus sambung blajar ke berhijrah ke kn? Bagi notis 24jam dan straight away blah. Huh! Berangan je la bole. Takde maknenye nak jadik kenyataan. Nanti siapa yang nak menyara Jason? Serta En Prudential? Sape nk Bagi duit kt mereka kalau bukan aku?

Kalo takde Jason dan En Prudential dah lama aku cabut berenti keje sambung blajar. Konfem dapat punye. Result degree pun (macam ) ok walaupun bukan best student atau dapat Anugerah Dekan atau the most outstanding student ;) Kalau mintak InsyaAllah dapat . Aku je yang fikir panjaaaaang kalu nak sambung blajar. Banyak nyawa yang aku kene sara dan pelihara.

Dan Sudin? Dah lama sakit baru bawak pegi berubat, nampaknya dia kene makeover skit. Kene bagi antibiotic yang power gila baru dia boleh sihat seperti sedia kala. Rindu sangat kat Sudin! Maafkan saya sebab abaikan awak. Ade depan mata pon saya buat tak kisah je. Okey pasni awak dah sihat, saya layan awak selalu ye? Jangan marah saya tau.





*****






Berborak-borak dengan besfren aku tadik, cakap pasal makan dalam pasal hal rasa terasa ni….

Bak kate omputih, ‘How much is too much?’

Kalau sekali dua tu aku faham lah nak buat lawak, tapi kalu dah sampai 17, 24 kali, tak ke makan dalam lawak2 ko tu?

Tapi, bagi aku kalau kau nak buat lawak, joking around pasal perangai ke sifat ke takpe lagi, sebab bende tu boleh ubah, tapi bila kau cakap pasal fizikal seseorang tu kau dah over the limit tu, dah boleh buat orang lain sakit hati.

Macam ada sorang kawan aku ni, , bile dia describe kawan aku sorang lagi macam ni,

“Ha, nilah namenye Akak Gigi Besar…” sambil merujuk kepada seorang rakan pompuan aku ni.
Rakan aku tadi, hanya mampu tersengih, bila dengar description kawan aku yang sorang ni.

Perghh! Kalu aku konfem dah terase dah. Maybe aku dah kuar p bilik air, nangis sorang-sorang dalam bilik air.Maybe pada dia ayat dia cukup lawak, tapi bagi aku that’s too much. It’s like she ever wish that her teeth is that big. Kamon ar, nak buat lawak biar bertempat.


Eh tetiba aku cam emo plak.



Last few days aku dapat new yang macam shocking tapi dah boring.

Same old same old.

Come to think of it, Allah itu Maha Adil. Rezeki masing-masing walaupun sometimes tidak dapat tidak untuk terdetik di fikiran tentang rasional sebalik semua kejadian ini.

Tidak dapat tidak to think of their lucky-ness in their life.
Tidak dapat tidak to think that my life sucks.
Tidak dapat tidak to think that I should be doing something, anything to prove it isn’t but I just don’t know how!



Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah
Astaghfirullah



Memang aku kena beristighfar banyak2 contemplate and meditate myself to think that everything happens for a reason.





Everything happens for a reason.







Indeed……

Maaf, anda tidak berjaya.

Dah dua, tiga kali aku dapat ayat ni bila tengok result exam ke result mintak kerja ke.


Frust siot.
Takkan nak kene amik exam 16 kali kot baru boleh dapat?


Oh well, one door closed; there’s always other door. Maybe if I knocked it real hard, it will open eventually…..

Back to reality.

Owh sungguh penat expedisi jalajah Singapore. Walaupon pergi 3 tempat je tapi cukup untuk menjadikan kaki aku sakit. Dem! Peant tapi seronok. Lebihnya aku ngn cik chummie byk tengok bet buat keje je. Amik gambar sket2. posing sket. Dah.

Tapi sebab pergi dengan Dr Rashidi a.k.a ‘brader’ a.k.a Sinya Ra, so the trip is quite educational for me and those students. Its their trip actually, aku ni nyebok je ngikut hehe.

Cakap pasal masa depan, aku cuba nak jadik anak solehah dengan nak memberikan kesenangan kepada orang tua aku. Tapi stakat ni aku rasa tak tercapai lagi. Entah bila pun aku tak tahu.

Aku dah penat nak compare diri sendiri dengan orang lain yang hidup mereka terbentang luas. They are blessed. Comes from a wealthy family, got looks and got brain. Seriyes penat. Sebab aku aku compare, aku akn jadik tak puas hati, which is bad because in the end, I’ll be ungrateful and take everything that I have for granted..

So, sekarang aku lebih berusaha untuk jadik lebih positif dan optimist. No more glass half empty, my glass will always be half full. At least I tried to think like that. I believe in the power of words and positive thinking.

Dan, soalan yang aku paling malas dan marah nak jawab ialah “Kau Bila Nak Kawen?”. Siriyes, I’ll feel offended by that question. So tolong jangan tanya aku soklan tu kalau tak nak kene hangin Ribut Ketsana aku ok?

Dan, jangan nak pandang aku semacam, kata aku tak tryla, aku memilih la, all those crap. Be in my shoes for a day, then you’ll know how I feel. Kalau kau cantik kau boleh buat apa sahaja ok? Leave me alone. Don’t judge me for something that you have no idea what its all about. I will have that someone, just not with this face and this body.
And please, don’t think that I don’t try to be like you. I did. But it was so damn hard. I’ve stop trying after the 128 times. Believe me, I tried…


Alright, enough of this crappy inner thoughts.

Right now, I’ll live my life the way I should. Que serra serra. What will be, will be.


Ya Allah,
Lembutkan kehidupan ini bagiku,
Dalam memudahkan urusan yang sukar,
Memudahkan setiap yang sukar itu amat mudah disisiMu,

Ya Allah, Ya Tuhanku,
Mudahkan bagiku segala urusan,
Tenangkan hatiku dan tubuh badanku,
Berikan keselamatan dan kesihatan pada agamaku dan duniaku.

Ya Allah,
Berikanku apa yang aku perlukan,
Sesungguhnya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untukku,
Aku berlindung dibawah KebesaranMu…

Ameen.

Masih Mood Beraya

iya sebab belum raya lagi

ala

7+6 tu

baru 3 je








eh sempatkah?

Selamat Hari Raya!

Perghhh.

Siriyes lame tak update blog.

Macam-macam hal dah jadik.


Semalam telah berjaya menyambut ulangtahun ke 26 dengan jayanya. Countdown pon dah abis. sedar tak sedar...
Ye trimas kepada semua individu yg telah mengucapkan “Selamat Hari Jadi” dan “Hepi Burfday” untuk saya. Ingatan kalian terhadap saya amatlah saya hargai.

Dapat urge nk tulis entry ni pas tgk channel KBSW malam tadi. Rancangan faveret dikala malam selasa, “Chit Chat of Beautiful Ladies”. Malam tadi versi spesel sebab ade guest which is male foreigner. And yes, one of them is from Malaysia. How cool was that?

And so I thought…..

One turn-off factor that I had is when one girl from China (I think), started to ask the Malaysian guy about a friend of her, which is Malaysian, which is also a Muslim. She ask the Malaysian guy (Loh I think was his name, and yes he is Chinese) if he drinks alcoholic drinks, because her Malaysian girl friend does not.

Then the guy said, his Buddhist, so its okay to drink alcohol. He also said only Muslim don’t drink alcohol. Then if you do drink, you’ll be prisoned. So everybody there make faces (muka tak puas hati) because of the Malaysian guy statement.

What the elf?

And then he also made a statement about how you’ll be sent to prison too if soldiers caught you “berduaan di dalam bilik hotel” and worst, you will be force to marry if you are caught doing that unmarried. And I was like…OMG, gila salah bagi info mamat ni.

That kind of rules only apply to Muslim la… I’m really pissed-off by his statement. You are soooo don’t have a clue about Malaysia. And there I was wondering about what kind of impression that he leaves to his fellow Korean friends. He is so wrong.

Nanti sure orang Korea takut nak datang Malaysia. Sebab nanti mesti kene tangkap kalau dok kat hotel tak kahwin lagi. Kan dah salah tu.

macam nak terang kt non-Muslim pasal mende-mende tangkap basah ni ek? lagipon, like I said before, those regulation only apply for Muslims.

klu akula yang jadik guest kt show tu sure stutter giler2 punye nak menhajwab pertanyaan itu. Alamak, nk kene mendalami lagi isu ini. Next time k?



Until then, todlooo

Post-Wedding Syndrome.

Owh.

Jenis penyakit yang baru di-discover.

Antara simtomnya ialah rasa lonely yang amat sangat setelah bestfren semua dah menikah, semakin kuat termenung, semakin kurang rasa seronok dan tahap LSE yang semakin menurun.

Anda mempunyai tanda-tanda ini?

Silalah berjumpa pakar sakit jiwa dengan segera.
Pengesanan awal menyelamatkan nyawa.


~ ~ sigh


Having to attend 4 straight weeks of weddings, kinda leaves you the feeling of wanting to get married as soon as possible.

(Well, not gonna happen to me in the time being, mind you) .


Then, finally watched 27 Dresses which coincidencely same of what I felt throughout the year. Strangely enough, I felt what Jane felt. Except the fact that I don’t have a cute boss which I madly in love with. plus I’m never as hot as Jane.

Well at least she has a happy ending, which I like so much. Because if it isn’t, I might get more depressed. Haha.

Maybe its real like Kevin said, that I don’t like the marriage, I just love the weddings.

Huh? Really? Oh! My gosh! That’s is sooooo not me!

Scary coincidence indeed.





****




Attending Safi’s wedding is so adventurous; it leaves me aching the whole body.


Penat giler tak hengat.


Having ‘problematic’ family, I’m so glad that we insist on watching Safi menikah. Otherwise, memang dia sorang-sorangla pegi masjid without anyone chaperoning her on her big day.

Wedding Safi memang banyak langkah kiri dan langkah kanan.

Sama banyak kot.

Mahu detail? sila lihat di blog buddytears.
aku dah maleh nk taip. hehe


until then, toodlooo...

I can dream, can’t I?

I don’t know why, but every time I’m in front or be at the nearby place of somebody of the royals or the Menteri-s I freaked out or I become somebody I’m not.







Gelabah Ayam.








Serious.




Macam masa graduation day, dapat scroll dari sultan, bile sultan tegur aku terus lupe step-step cane nak amik scroll tu.

Terus lupe pasal rehearsal.

Blank.

“Tahniah!” kata sultan,


Terkejut…terkesima…. “Ha? Oh! Terima kasih”


Ambik scroll sebelah tangan dan terus berlalu meninggalkan pentas….


Pasni kalu kene tulah tak taula…


Aku memang cepat menggelabah ayam kalu berada dekat ngan orang besar ni.
(not literally la, mind you)

cam dato’-dato’ ke tan sri-tan sri ke tun-tun ke.


Ish cane nak kawen ngan orang kaya ni?




Macam aritu nak amik gambar ngan mantan Perdana Menteri,

Dengan selamber je aku tanya “Pak Lah, nak bergambar dengan Pak Lah”


Pakkanlah Pak Lah tu sporting…klu tak kene buang negeri aku….





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Penat shopping dengan orang yang beli barang hantaran kawen.
(orang lain yang nak kawen, bukan aku, mind you)




Abis satu kedai masuk satu kedai.


Abis satu Sogo, masuk Lot 10 plak.




Serius tak tipoo punya.




Sangat penat.








Sekarang aku macam paham perasaan ayah aku bile dia dok tunggu aku ngan mak aku p shopping.


cam insaf sikit...